Alrighty, here goes. It is currently 7:52 AM, and in that time, I have already had enough happen that I can write about. That's messed up, that really is, just in case you were wondering. It doesn't exactly thrill me.
So I've decided that blog land is going to have to quiet down some, because even if i post as the first sentence that im just in one of my moods and not to read it if your not going to like it, it gets read anyways and everyones reactions are exactly what i knew they would be.
everyones either trying to mask it or get angry with me about it. okay maybe masking it isnt quite the right term i'm not really sure what the right term is, (its 7:54AM, cut me some slack.) but I appreciate the thought, I really do, you took the time to say the words that you thought would make me feel better, and they did but its just kinda, idk. i feel like there's so much more that i could say, but... i'm not going to.
and getting angry about it? how is that going to help me? i know what your situation was, i was the only person who didn't leave you because of it. i cant expect you to understand some of the things that go on inside my head and why i am this way at this given point, because i can't explain it to you. there is not one single person who knows why that is the way it is. and i intend to keep it that way. because if the real reason why did come out, it could be catastrophic. people would again, try and mask it, or get angry about it.
and i'm sorry if i can't let my friends get angry over my emotions. i've never gotten angry over yours.
So I woke up this morning feeling optomistic. And now I'm back down in my slump of.. whatever the hell this is.
But i'm done with this blog thing because... no one ever really reads between the lines anyways.
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