Winter Break

Having a car is nice. I've had plans every single day of vacation. i didnt sit around and rot. i love that :D

So I realized that I haven't been blogging for awhile like I used to every day, and I'm kind of proud of that. I've grasped my life by the reigns and led it in the direction that I want it to go- instead of just blog-complaining about it and letting everyone else eventually read it and help me fix it.

I fix things for myself now- end of story.

I'm not afraid to ask for help. Because I know that Ian, Taylor and Kevin will all answer the phone at 2 AM. Seeming as all three of them have in the past. You three have been my rock through everything, you've always supported me, even if you didnt like my choices or my decisions, you still found ways to let me know that it'll all be okay.

So if I need to ask for help, I know where I can find it.

And I know that if i never need someone to listen to me, i can turn to ashleigh. i know she'll be there for me.

But for this new year, my goal is going to be to realize those who haven't betrayed me, or gone against me, or picked up a knife and stabbed me. I gave it a longg thought process, (seeming as I was up well into the first hours of the morning on a caffeine buzz) and I've realized who has been there for me and done anything to help me.

I help those who help me.

More importantly, this year is going to be the year that I decide things. I'm tired of letting other people's influences and decisions shape who I am. That's done. It's all me now. I'm going to let everyone do whatever they want to do- go ahead and do it. Be with who you want to be with, say what you want to say, do what you want to do, I'm done caring about it if it's going to negatively influence me, or if it has in the past, I'm done with it.

So, here's to the fact that I am a strong, independent, amazing individual, and that I will do anything to help my friends. The ones who have proven to me that they'll stand beside me in the storms, until I can get back on my feet again.

The end.

Ian, you owe me ten bucks. :D